Today while at the box talking with Zach and Julia about
Eminem and music it triggered my thoughts.
Eminem to me has always been able to express his hatred and anger for
his mom. That pain he raps about is my
pain as well how my mom wrecked me. I
got thinking of a paper I wrote in high school about the night she ran out my
life when I was just a little kid.
I started searching perusing files and in the midst of this
I discovered many years and hundreds of pages of my past writings. Some poems, some unfinished books, some made
no sense and some were journals. I wrote
my through my emotions love, hate, pain, anger, happiness and so many more. In 2009 I seemed to stop lose emotion, lose
my way have nothing to put pen to paper for but journaling. I always wrote for myself. My favorite part of writing is sending snail
mail, cards and little pieces of life to friends around the country. So with this blog I’m trying to rekindle a
bit of my soul which has been hiding out.
Writing expressing a little bit of my life to you so you can know me
better. In my writing I expect to launch
occasional debate, have friendly conversations and release stress. As long as you will have me I’ll keep
sharing. Here is a piece of writing I
did a few years ago when I was depressed.
I read it only to realize how far I’ve come, how much I’ve grown and the
place I occasionally go back to.
Lifeless living 9/6/2002
Turmoil, trouble, terror
All negative things in life is all I
see
Nothing can cure me bring me life
I walk around lost
No permanent home, no permanent
family
No one who cares if I were here or
not
Optimist is what I try to be
When nothing goes your way it seems
so rough and so hard
How when I have this view can I be
so down and depressed
I’m living lifeless
No heart or soul behind me in what I
do
Alone transparent in being
Lifeless, lifeless, lifeless
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